I think it's time

That I make more sense into what I'm writing about most of the time. I find it hard to make friends with people without hurting others. I don't think that's right. I mean, everything I do always has to hurt at least someone. And it's not fair for me. I guess life isn't fair. & I know that all ready. So right now, I'm currently listening to California- Metro Station. I can't help it... I mean everysingletime. I just... I just stop and think about this person. It's kinda weird. I was kinda mean to him. And I don't think I was being fair. I guess I have my moody days too. And those were one of the days. These are the things that I'm sure that I want right now:
1) Summer. Damn. Next Wednesday. Seems like forever.

2) Privacy. I've been wanting that a lot lately, actually.

3) Peace. Jeeezers. So much Drama lately. I guess I might as well kill myself.

4) I want to find out what God was thinking when he created us. Like... Did he know that we humans are very smart and can develop technology that can lead to a TON of trouble?

5) What's the point of living right now. I feel horrible.

& That's pretty much it. I guess. It's weird. I always feel like this when I get my phone taken away. I guess my mom still thinks I'm too young to have my own privacy. And I do understand her, really. It's just I want to live my own life without anyone controlling me. It's not fair. It's not. I mean I can do whatever the Hell I want with my own damn hair. It's not surprising to find me with short hair all of a sudden. Okay, yes it's surprising. But... I need more priveledges. Like, she doesn't understand me. And ...


I can't wait til Summer mayannn! Things I wanna do for thee Summer.
1) Have my very first bonfire. Never had one.

2) Get a tan. Yes. I've been feeling really white lately. It's not even funny. Thank God I don't have to change in P.E. anymore.

3) Take a lot of pictures and print them out. I want my memories to last forever. I mean it when I say forever.

4) I want my parents to understand me more. I want them to let me have fun and enjoy just this one Summer. It makes perfect sense to me that they don't want me growing up, but nothing's helping me grow smaller. Common sense.

5) I want to spend time with the people that I want to hang out with. I want to make the best of it. Of course I'll miss everything the next school year. & that's why I want this Summer to be a blast. But it's not gonna work out if my parents don't understand me.

6) Move and live on. Get over the things that I've always been afraid of. I want to make a difference in my life for once. It might take time, but oh well.

7) Make new friends. Hey, it's almost Summer ;)

8) Live my life pleasingly.

9) Turn 13 already. C'mon. Time's killing me. I've been dreaming about December 24th. Ahahaha yes. I dream about meee turning 13.

10) HAVEAGREATSUMMER

I guess I'm done blogging for the day. I guess it really does help blogging when I'm deppressed. I guess this is better than doing nothing. But I still kinda miss my phone. Yeah. I want it back. NOW. But I don't think that's gonna happen... :(
Pray for meeee.

Merry Le.

<3