I like you.

This feeling's too strong.

Change is good.

I'm not your best friend,

but I'm still your friend.

Though some people want to strangle me for what I did to you,

I like the change.

I'm enjoying it.

Growing Apart.

I have a feeling we're truly growing apart. It's not just physically, but mentally also. You tell her things that you've never told me, and that just annoys & irritates me. I wish our friendship could be perfect, but it's not. I know you can't tell me everything, but it just irritates me that you tell her something, and she knows about it and I don't. I think I'm just making a big deal out of this. I just wanted to express my feelings. I truly miss the old days. Aha, old as in a few months back. But isn't it funny how things can change so quickly? I guess it happens for the best . I wonder what's in line for next year.

Like I said, Jealousy is a pain in the ass.

It's happening all over again.

"It's a circle, a mean cycle."

she's sixteen years old. she's not perfect; never has been, probably never will be. she's emotional and she doesn't think about things before she says them. invariably, she'll say some things that will make you want to strangle her. she'll probably hurt you and make more mistakes than you can imagine. she doesn't mean to, but she probably will. however, she will apologize. she's still learning about everything, even if she thinks she already knows it. she's been hurt; hurt deeply. sometimes she feels so alone she can hardly stand it. other times she's so happy she acts drunk. she's just trying to figure out this twisted time in her life when everything gets real complicated real fast and everything seems to spin out of control before she even begins to understand what's going on. but she loves, laughs, and does her best and that's all you can ever ask of her.

Every time I take on deep breath,

I feel like I'm being punched in the guts.

It's not a nice feeling,

I feel as if I deserve it.

It hurts to think about it.

I know I hurt you,

I just don't know what to do anymore.

For some reason, this really random person messaged me on Myspace, and he wasn't even my friend. But in the message, it contained this quote:

"Be the change you wish to see in the world." -Gandhi

You’re going to come across people in your life who will say all the right words at all the right times. But in the end, it’s always their actions you should judge them by. It’s actions, not words, that matter.

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We all have our ups & downs,

and we'll eventually lose everything we have.

So why even bother trying to repair things up?

Beg for the attention,

beg for the fame

beg for your love

beg for everything;

I'm not like that.

I want you to know, that it hurts a lot when you bash me that way.

But we all have to deal with it.

I miss everything that used to be good.

But I guess it all goes away , eventually

when it's not expected.

It's not so fun having a private blog,

but I guess it's best.

& ignore me if you'd like,

I don't think I care anymore.

Where we're living in this town

The sun is coming up and it's going down

But it's all just the same at the end of the day

And we cheat and we lie

Nobody says it's wrong

So we don't ask why

Cause it's all just the same at the end of the day

We're throwing it all away

We're throwing it all away

We're throwing it all away at the end of the day

Just tell me it's tearing you apartJust tell me you cannot sleep .

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I don't know how to respond to this situation right here.

I don't know what I should say

when you tell me that you think you're bi.

How can someone change just so much over one year?

I miss the old you,

I really do.

You've changed.

I've changed.

I'm not judgmental, just completely shocked.

I've known you for nearly 3 years, and .

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I guess we all change for the best.

Remember back then, in 6th grade on picture day, I was late and came to school wearing all black and you asked me what the hell I was wearing? Aha, I miss that.

And on picture day, when you had spaghetti straps and you had to do SO many retakes? I miss that too. And that time, when you gave me a piggyback ride back to the locker rooms in P.E. I miss that too. We ran our miles together, shared stuff, and I even got an eye rash from your cat. We'd go to the Block 24/7 together, and go past my curfew and we'd end up getting me in trouble. And that one time when you cut my hair so short just trying to attempt to make more layers on my head. Your uncle made us feel bad.

All that's left behind. It's a new year. I'm moving on for the best.

I didn't trip.

I said hello to the wall with my face.

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Some days you're the bug,

Some days you're the windshield.

I feel as if my insides are being blown up.I miss you.

♥

No matter how different we are, we all share one thing:

"Hate me now if it makes you feel right.& break me down if it keeps you alright."

How many days have you lived till today?

December 24th, 1996.

Results:

• The birthday is Dec 24, 1996.
• Today is Jan 1, 2010. (Next birthday is after 357 days)
• The person has lived for 4756 days. (13 years and 8 days)

• The person will have lived for 4800 days on Feb 14, 2010. (13 years 1 month and 21 days)
• The person will have lived for 5000 days on Sep 2, 2010. (13 years 8 months and 9 days)
• The person will have lived for 5555 days on Mar 10, 2012. (15 years 2 months and 17 days)
• The person will have lived for 10000 days on May 11, 2024. (27 years 4 months and 18 days)

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Oh, the truth hurts and lies worse

How can I give anymore

When I love you a little less than before?

I want to see if this is true .

'Beautiful things come out of horrible situations. I know for a fact. Out of sadness you get a new found wisdom on how the world can look with a haze of gray clouds, how people can be senseless, how you can see the whole universe in a whole new way. And that may be hard to handle, hard to cope, hard to accept, but it is so damn beautiful if you really take the chance to realize. Out of anger, you can feel your heart beat race, with every beat it is shaking your whole being and not only the heavy steps you take. It is when you, your whole self and some power is telling you that you are alive. And that is amazing in every angle. Out of anything there is something in there that makes it incredible. Something that makes it shine. Whatever you feel is potent and it is such a blessing to be able to feel what you feel. You just have to think about it.'

Those words hurt.

Even if I'm trying to be strong;

I just can't.

I don't know what I did wrong.

I'll love you internally for eternity.

I feel too much.

That's what's going on.

Do you think one can feel too much?

Or just feel in the wrong ways?

My insides don't match up with my outsides.

Do anyone's insides and outsides match up?

I don't know. I'm only me.

Maybe that's what a person's personality is:

the difference between the inside and outside.

That's why it feels like

losing you is like somebody just turned all the lights off

won't somebody, anybody

please just turn the lights on?